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Wednesday, May 25, 2016

The hardest part of the day

I thought it would get easier, day after day- but it is the exact opposite- harder each time -




No one to share the events of the day, or tell me a joke, or ask my opinion. Sam the corgi, well, not a huge conversationalist. A little tired of the table for one..............

Friday, April 1, 2016

A bad hand..........

It's often said time heals all wounds - well it has been a year- this wound isn't healed, isn't smaller, hasn't begun to go away. If I had fallen down and skinned my knee- i could understand- as it is, I don’t. There isn't a day I don't wonder, there isn't a day I don't shed a tear, there isn't a day I am not sad.

All I want is to trust again, to laugh again, to smile again. 


Maybe it just isn't in the cards I have been dealt


Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Angel Flight 3/21/16

In honor of the men and women of the 300th Airlift Squadron from Joint Base Charleston who completed the angel flight for USMC Staff Sgt. Louis Cardin. 



All I ever wanted to do was fly*
Leave this world and live in the sky
I left the C130 out of Fort Worth town
I go up some days I don't wanna come down

Well I fly that plane called the Angel Flight
Come on brother you're with me tonight
Between Heaven and earth you're never alone
On the Angel Flight
Come on brother I'm taking you home

I love my family and I love this land
But tonight this flight's for another man
We do what we do because we heard the call
Some gave a little, but he gave it all

I fly that plane called the Angel Flight
Come on brother you're with me tonight
(Come on brother you're with me tonight)
Between Heaven and earth you're never alone



On the Angel Flight
Come on brother I'm taking you home
Come on brother I'm taking you home

Well, the cockpit's quiet and the stars are bright
Feels kinda like church in here tonight
It don't matter where we touch down
On the Angel Flight its sacred ground

I fly that plane called the Angel Flight
Gotta hero riding with us tonight
Between Heaven and earth you're never alone
On the Angel Flight
Come on brother I'm taking you home
Come on brother I'm taking you home
Come on brother I'm taking you home
Come on brother I'm taking you home


Friday, January 29, 2016

To the Moon..........

She's taking her time
Making up the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows
From the smiles and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one
They're saying, "Mama never loved her much
And daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come"
And she'll say to him
She's sayin'
"I would fly to the moon and back if you'll be
If you'll be my baby
I've got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?"
She can't remember a time
When she felt needed
If love was red then she was color blind
All her friends
Well they've been tried for treason
And crimes that were never defined
She's saying, "Love is like a barren place
And reaching out for human faith is
It's like a journey I just don't have a map for
So baby's gonna take a dive and a
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging all her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream"
She's sayin'
"I would fly to the moon and back if you'll be
If you'll be my baby
I've got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?"
Hold on, hold on
"Mama never loved her much
And, daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come"
And she'll say to him
She's sayin'
"I would fly to the moon and back if you'll be
If you'll be my baby
I've got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?"
"I would fly to the moon and back if you'll be
If you'll be my baby
I've got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?"
Yeah

Friday, January 22, 2016

Every Breaking Wave..........



Every breaking wave on the shore
Tells the next one "there'll be one more"
Every gambler knows that to lose

It's what you're really there for
Someone else fears
Now I'm speaking to an answerphone
Like every fallen leaf on the breeze
Winter wouldn't leave it alone, alone


If you go
If you go your way and I go mine
Are we so
Are we so helpless against the time?
Baby, every doubt of history
Knows that we're in love with defeat
Are we ready to be swept off our feet
And start chasing every breaking wave?



Every sailor knows that the sea
Is a friend made enemy
Every shipwrecked soul knows what it is
To live without intimacy
I thought I heard the captain's voice
It's hard to listen while you preach
Like every broken wave on the shore
This is as far as I could reach





The sea knows where all the rocks
Are drowning is an ocean
You know where my heart is
The same place that yours has been
We know that we fear the wind
And it's all we have before we begin
Before we begin


If you go
If you go your way and I go mine
Are we so
Are we so helpless against the time?
Baby, every doubt of history
Knows that we're in love with defeat
Are we ready to be swept off our feet
And start chasing every breaking wave?

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Tonight I cried

Tonight I cried...........


Its been a rough day and tonight I cried........

I cried for the puppy I have raised since he was too young to leave his real mom,
the nights I bottle fed him with bitches milk and cuddled him to help him feel safe and secure.


I cried for the boy I raised and became best friends with
the one I dragged hockey bags for  from Tampa to Knoxville to Newark to Oslo
and who has never let me down, well, he did twizzle me on a airplane........




and I cried for the lonliness, the broken heart and solitude of the existence.......with the hope that some day it will turn to fufillment - is it too much to ask?



Sunday, October 4, 2015

Be a good neighbor

We are having a great series at Seacoast on ‘Like a good neighbor’. Charleston has gone thru quite a bit this year to show what kind of neighbors we are. Currently we are experiencing a weather phenomenon dumping tremendous amounts of rain on the LowCountry. I have been moving during the storm and finally am settled in my new place. This morning there was a lull in the rain and I took Sam the corgi for a much needed long walk around the Battery condos. 

As I came to the main intersection, I noticed there was some flooding, 4-5 inches deep. Cars were gingerly driving thru the water to get out the main gate. I brought Sam home and retrieved my camera to photograph the flooding. I was trying to be quick, because I wanted to make the 10 AM service at Seacoast. 

As I began photographing the scene, I realized the reason why it was flooded, the drainage grates were clogged with pine straw and leaves. The first grate was not to deep, and as I kicked away the debris, water began draining. 




I carefully waded out to the second grate with was a good four inches deep and started removing the debris over to landscaping. Quickly water began to swirl and drain, and within a few minutes, the flooded area was drained. 




An elderly gentleman approached in his car, and thanked me, and explained that he had been very wary to drive through the water. It wasn’t much, but it made life a little better  ( and safer) for my neighbors. 


So when I listened to Pastor Greg this morning, his message of ‘like a good neighbor’ really hit home. So today, wether you are having an emergency or it is just a normal day, be a great neighbor. 

PS: My camera time was off, coz I made it to Seacoast right at 10 AM!

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Are ya happy now?

Now, don’t just walk away
Pretending everything’s ok
And you don’t care about me
And I know there’s just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don’t care... yeah, yeah, yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you’re happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take,
And left me with an empty plate
And you don’t care about it, yeah.
And I am givin' up this game
I’m leaving you with all the blame cause I don’t care, yeah, yeah yeah,

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you’re happy now, oohh oohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now? yeah, yeah, yeah.

Do you really have everything you want?
You can't ever give somethin' you ain't got
You can’t run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye?
and tell me that you're happy now, yeah, yeah
come on, tell it to my face or have i been replaced,
are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
are you happy now?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I’ve had all that I can take
I'm not about to break
Cause I’m happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Are you happy now?

Friday, April 3, 2015

"Old And Wise"



As far as my eyes can see
There are shadows approaching me
And to those I left behind
I wanted you to know
You've always shared my deepest thoughts
You follow where I go


And oh when I'm old and wise
Bitter words mean little to me
Autumn winds will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they asked me if I knew you
I'd smile and say you were a friend of mine
And the sadness would be lifted from my eyes
Oh when I'm old and wise

As far as my eyes can see
There are shadows surrounding me
And to those I leave behind
I want you all to know
You've always shared my darkest hours
I'll miss you when I go

And oh, when I'm old and wise
Heavy words that tossed and blew me
Like autumn winds will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they ask you if you knew me
Remember that you were a friend of mine
As the final curtain falls before my eyes
Oh when I'm old and wise

As far as my eyes can see

Friday, February 27, 2015

A long time coming

It seems like a life time ago I bought my first Harley- a 1200 Sportster in a beautiful shade of blue. I learned to ride again (after being told by ex mother in law that 'nice girls didn't ride') - I made friends, took her on the Blue Ridge Parkway and the Tail of the Dragon- It wasn't too long before I realized she was just not the right bike for me.



Enter the Softail Deluxe - I stumbled onto an incredible deal and bought  'Black Beauty' - a beautiful all black Deluxe with saddle bags. Slowly I made her my own- chrome and pipes, eventually paint, more chrome, and Led lighting- for 9 years she was my ride- 35000 miles were on her- incredible miles to wonderful places, Key West, Outer Banks, Williamsburg.....  Sadly, I outgrew her as well.


Now it is time to introduce 'Sunny' as my latest. She has been a long time in coming. A beautiful Harley Street glide in Chrome yellow pearl- I knew a while ago that I wanted a StreetGlide- they are beautiful bikes with a fairing , an entertainment system, technology and a smooth ride. They aren't cheap- so I hatched a plan and started working (Joe getting my dream bike in September didn't help- AND to add insult to injury he asked ME to pick the thing up). I have worked countless nights- taken care of the sickest of the sick, wiped more butts than I care to count, pushed IV meds and suctioned out an unknown number of trachs.- all this AFTER my full time day job and position as student. It all came to fruition when I picked my new ride up and brought it home.

Now I am just waiting for warmer weather and DRY weather so I can grab some seat time........